x factor

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I am so excited about our Christmas party this coming friday, November 28, 2008.

(Yes I know it's too early...But all the other dates are quite occupied already...quite a number of parties to attend. Sigh.)

Well, we will be having lechon (wow! talk about cholesterol! hahaha!), and many more. It's actually a swimming party with lots of food. I'm one of the organizers and i really hope everything will be alright (especially the budget... sigh.)

Yes I am excited about everything in the party...the place...I think this is one of the first places where my current boyfriend started flirting on me (that he cannot deny. chin up.)

However, there is this tiny little something that's bothering me.
And yes it's that big ex-factor. sigh. Also known as my triple X boyfriend.

(Why triple X? Well that would be a long story I've already told a million times and people just can't get over the issue. I guess I'll just post a separate blog for that. For now, he's Mr. 3X.)

Well, Nov 28 is his birthday. And I just don't feel like enjoying on that day because I feel like when I do so, It would be like celebrating his birthday.

(Stupid but yes that's how I feel)
And I hate the feeling.
(Ofcourse I should hate anything that has to do with him. I mean, after everything? Sigh.
Oh, I just can't wait to blog about him.)

Out There

Out There
Soulmate07



I wish I’m out in the sun.
Walking barefoot.
Almost tasting the cold dew.
Letting the sun warm the coldness of my being.

I wish I’m dancing in the rain.
Naked.
Feeling the softness of bitter caress.
Allowing the rain to wash over the emptiness

I wish I’m sleeping in my bed
Drowned in pillows.
Catching my breath.
Taking in the absurdity of false closure.

I wish I’m anywhere but here.
Wherever.
Where I can’t be with you.
Someplace I can’t look to hate you.

And love you still.


My bff, emma jean, made this for me.
That time, I needed this (that was a year ago).
And I still love it.