Mr CHIPS

hello Philippines! hello world!Ü
(hehe!)

I have this cute story and i don't know how my boyfriend will react to this.
(He's a little sensitive about it.)
(Or I am sensitive about my guy's past relationships that I think they are too.)

It's not a "relationship" anyway. And it happend long before my boyfriend, Mr BIG (why Mr BIG? Because he's a huge man...Ü) looked at each other in a malicious way.Hahaha.

And here it goes.

I have this guy friend I met here at the office. Let's call him Mr CHIPS.
We hang out. He's cute and funny and all that. He plays the guitar (i love men who could play an instrument...so amazing). I even imagined he was wearing glasses (because when I was little I imagined that my prince charming would be wearing eye glasses and I'm holding on to that). I liked him and I think he likes me too.

Soooooooooo exciting.

There was just a little problem that time.
I HAD I BOYFRIEND.
(yes the great mister triple ex boyfriend, the story of which i still can't find time (and the mood) to write about)

How is that? (eyes rolling)
At some point I was thinking of breaking up him because I fancied Mr CHIPS a lot.
But I didn't. I was in love with Mr 3X. Perhaps I was just missing him and Mr CHIPS was just around the corner.

Then Mr CHIPS told my bff and I he was going out with someone and she became his girlfriend.

hurt.hurt.hurt.

Then Mr 3X broke up with me.

More hurt.

I think i subconciously waited for him ( I never admitted that I actually was). I just knew their relationship wouldn't last that long. However it was long enough for me to give it up. And maybe because I met Mr BIG.

A few months later, they broke up.

Much more hurt.
I felt like breaking up with Mr BIG. But would it be worth it?

Perhaps we are just not meant to be together. The whole more-than-just-friends idea is not meant to happen.
And I have to leave it that way.
I have to give up.

Especially that he is with someone right now. Or so we think (me and bff).
I'm curious but I didn't want to ask.
I'd like to keep the littlest hope in me, that someday...

But Mr BIG told me about it.
And he said he was sure.

And that's the end of it.